Why is that I seem to always find myself back at this spot. This spot where I am looking back feeling disappointed that I had so many plans....unfulfilled plans. Maybe, just maybe, the new year should not begin with looking back, but rather with looking forward. Not looking at one’s failures of things undone, but looking at new beginnings, things yet to be accomplished.
So, here I am, a new day, a new year. The Intentional Servant. I guess I could look back and see when I started this blog. I think it was 5 years ago. But instead, I will think more about WHY I started this blog. The word ‘intentional’ strikes out at me and screams my name. BE INTENTIONAL. Intentional with what you do. Every breath. Every movement. I am not a very intentional person. I feel that I am just going through the motions. Waking up everyday (thank you Lord) and just passing through. That does not seem to be a very productive way of life; getting to the end of a day and having ‘made it through’. So I will work on being intentional. Does that mean that I need to make lists? Write it down? Yes, I think that is what I will have to do. Something that forces me to SEE my intentions. Actually commit to them. Maybe set a timeline.
Now, SERVANT, wow! that’s a big one. I know that I have come back to that one so many times. As a mom, as a wife, that is what I do. I serve. 1 Peter 4:10 recently called out to me. I was driving and I heard it. 10Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. I heard the words and they resonated with me. My memory is horrid so I had to grab my phone and type myself a note so that I would remember to look it up again. This morning, as I am trying desperately to begin my new year intentionally, I read through all of 1 Peter 4, it sounds like words one should begin their new year with.
So this is where I am. A new year. A new beginning. No looking back. Only forward.
“God, grant me strength to begin each day intentionally. To serve You and to serve others with only the grace that can be found in You.”
